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Hope? Hopeless? Hopelessly In Hope?

In Dissecting Life on January 18, 2011 at 3:51 pm

HopeHope comes with no guarantees yet it is this abstract noun that your entire life revolves around. Hope is driven purely by the desire to be in a better position in the near future, but it is not a confirmation that you will be in a better position. Hope projects an appealing vision that can help you crawl through time. But it makes no promises whatsoever. Despite being so unreliable, hope sees us through the good and bad times.

My greed gives me hope because it helps me visualize what life would be if I had it all. My competitiveness gives me hope because it forces me to imagine what life would be if I won it all. My generosity gives me hope, for I can picture what life could be like for others if I gave it all away. My fear makes me hope that I will be safe and well protected someday. When I close my eyes and see myself happy, I know how I want to be. This knowledge, this desire gives me hope– “I hope I eradicate my misery!” Hope is the temptation that makes me want to work harder to get what I want or what I think I want.

Sometimes I “hope” when I have given up; I am done fighting. I “hope” that things get better when I’ve lost control of a situation; I have a feeling that this is as good as it gets. You reach this point when you know that things cannot possibly get any better and you call out to something that can set it right. Something out-of-the-normal, perhaps a set of random occurrences, that can put life back on track.

Hope leaves most of us in a state of “maybe” or “you never know”.  Maybe things will get better. You never know what’s in store for you. Maybe this is how it was “meant to be”. You never know which door will open up for you. We also console ourselves with “this is my destiny” or “everything happens for a reason” or “you must have faith” or “you got to be at the right place at the right time”. All these statements essentially boil down to– “I don’t know!” 

The “I don’t knows” in my life makes hope non-existent. I cannot dabble in the “maybe-maybe not” see-saw. I’d rather sit back and tell myself, “I don’t know what’s in store for me.” But I know what I want. I want every moment to give me enough reasons to laugh my lungs out. If life does not present me with those reasons, I shall create them myself. Sure I care about tomorrow but I am not scared of tomorrow. So, “Bring it on!”